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No, I am not giving up, I wasn't born the day of giving-up, but it is draining to do so many papers in one week. I just finished the one of the heaviest one, Human Behavior. It still needs some proofreading, so I can get a good grade, the grade I deserve. Now I have to start another heavy content paper, Practice with individuals. I am overwhelmed but I will get through this, I know it.

Everyone have been telling me this is the hardest semester, and my understanding says, it is because this semester makes you tough and helps you deal with rest of the three semesters. Ah, I need a drink and chill out evening with people I love. I want to cook, and eat my home cooked food, I want to just relax and feel that there is a life beyond school.

Oh, dreams, its 4.30AM, and I am tired. Adios...miss writing on daily basis.

Trojan

Issues, and dilemmas!

Nah, this is not the part of the Trojan Journey, or may be it is...I am pissed at my roommate. He is eating my food, using my stuff and don't even care to ask me before using :-(

I know...but seriously? I am a student who is living on federal aid and loans. I don't buy food for others, I buy for myself. my tea, my milk, my groceries, all belong to me...not to my roommate.

I am annoyed by this but I feel uncomfortable telling him because I was raised as that person who should share her food, cloths and almost everything with others becasue sharing is caring. Now when I am 'turning' in to an American, I feel everyone should make their own living. If someone wants to use my stuff, they should respect me and ask me before using my stuff, be it a food or anything else.

On top of all he has cold and sickness, and damn guy is walking all over the place, when he should stay in his room, rest and not spread his germs all over the house. Its mid term damn it, I have papers to finish and I cant afford to get sick!

Oh, anyways....back to papers!

Trojan

Under the....

I am fine, my roommate is sick. Damn it! I don't want to get sick man...but ofcourse he is spreading germs like its his home lol

I bought lysol, airborne and all the needy stuff. He is under the weather, and I am under the pressure, of mid terms...

Get better and move on with your life rommie...I am worried you will make me sick and I seriously have no time to fall sick :-/

Trojan

Sleep Deprived, is it?

I am sleep deprived though I slept over 10 hours last night, but for last four days before yesterday I slept only 2/3 hours a day. I am glad I was able to rest my body before it give up and crash, but the stress of papers has increased. I am writing blog to calm my mind lol, no seriously, its not an excuse :-)

Okay, the timer starts now....like right now... 5 days & 4 papers: 1 research based paper push my limits and discuss issues which Congress fixed or actually ruined; 2 papers which are crazy psycho papers and make me the same, and the last but not least paper judges humans on behalf of the way they were raised...bless me my lord because I know I CAN DO IT...Amen!

Don't forget to pray for me...and don't sleep on time and wake up on time...dont look up to me for this issue lol

Adios,
Trojan

Lost Stuck and Confused

I am lost at this point. First of all it is mid terms and I have shortage of time, second, when I want to finish the paper, ethical questions are kicking my ass...Ethically I shouldn't reproduce others stuff, shouldn't copy paste while writing my papers and blah blah blah...and third, even if I quit thinking about ethics, I find myself in crap :-/

I am working on my policy paper and I have chosen my favorite topic, Violence Against Women Act....now when I am in the middle of this paper I realized that my research is not that strong, and I hardly have any counter debate of VAWA to be the state policy in opposition to federal policy which it is today. I can go back to do the research but the timing sucks. I was supposed to finish this paper yesterday, but I stretched cos I needed sleep. I haven't had sleep of couple hours or so for two days. Gosh, I am so freaked up...I have three papers to finish in 6 days, and I am not sure how and what I need to do to give my 100% to these papers.

I have written an email to my professor asking if I can change my topic and if so which topic is more stronger between same sex couple and VAWA or immigrant women and VAWA. I hope she respond me in few so I can continue to work on my paper, and still catch my deadline.

Oh lord, help me! I am lost, I am stuck and I am so confused!!!

Trojan