Late entry - lol

Update from Monday/Tuesday: I spent all of Monday night TRYING to write my policy paper that was due Tuesday 8am. I was tired, emotionally drained and overwhelmed. The topic I was working is "If Violence Against Women Act should be apply to same-sex couples." I did write some of it and then I lost my head when I read the definition of Domestic Violence. I know what it is, I know it way too much because I am a survivor of DV...I lived in the same house with my ex for years...and that life is one of the reasons I chose to be a Social Worker.

The definition of DV stated the beating, kicking and what not....and I went into my weird mode ever. I broke down and my overwhelming mode took over. I cried and lost the emotional sense of self. I know today and I knew it in the past that one should step out of emotional stage while working on the professional level, but at that very moment I lost it and I went on remembering my old days with my ex. The biggest issue, I think, was that I never believed I was going through domestic violence because he loved me, and I loved him...because we chose each other and because we were so happy at times...BUT the truth and reality was so different.

I learnt one thing out of that crashing mode of mine that I am still sensitive to DV issues, I am still in some sort of depression and overwhelming feelings can easily trigger the depressive mode. Hence I have decided to make myself strong and understand my triggers...so I am able to step back and be professional.

Working on three papers (one due on Sunday, second on Monday and third on Tuesday) shook me off...and also taught me that procrastinating is not healthy for emotional self as well as for educational goals of mine.

I finished all three papers on time. I am yet not sure if I finished every paper in a professional manner or not and also this that if I did the A grade work... Losing emotions is easy and it makes one lose grades too. I sent my Policy paper via email to my professor at 7.50 am when it was due at 8am. I guess lesson learnt, or something like that.

Anyways, I am awaiting results which I should get within few days.

Adios Amigo,
Trojan

P.S. Late entry lol means when as a social worker we forget or are unable to enter client's progress we write 'late entry' and the date of the incident day plus current date...and this post was well due from days so late entry it is lol

Fighting On...Yawn!

Last night, or say early morning today I was fighting on...and within few I was dead a sleep with all the lights on, laptop in lap and I was out of this normal world...woke up at 8, went back to sleep, woke up at 8.30...and looked around my own bedroom thinking as if I was in the different world...Finally woke up at 10 and now I am back in the business. Still wondering where to start this paper which is due tonight.

Oh, I cant keep my eyes open. I am tired, and USC is pushing my limits. My mind is getting streched as an elastic. Hopefully it will take some good shape, if nothing else hee hee

Trojan

Fight on!

I didnt give up, because I cant give up. I know its not in my DNA, lol.

Seriously, I am not sure how my body and mind are holding up, but I am able to hold up pretty well. I am so proud of myself hee hee. Anyways, the good news is that I finished my Human Behavior midterm and then just finished my second paper out of four midterm papers. I have only few hours to do one more paper, which is research based Policy paper. I was up all night yesterday, and wrote my Practice paper. I slept at 6, woke up at 10.30, and since then I finished proofreading+finishing with new info two damn papers. Its 3.30 am.

I need a little break for my mind because there is no way in hell I have time to give break to my body. I am going to take an hour rest and then with coffee, I will start the third paper...Wish me luck!

Trojan


P.S. I figured out why Trojan, USC and Fight on goes hand in hand..because Trojans are given so much of work to do at USC that if we wont Fight on, we will die lol

Fight on :-)