Late entry - lol

Update from Monday/Tuesday: I spent all of Monday night TRYING to write my policy paper that was due Tuesday 8am. I was tired, emotionally drained and overwhelmed. The topic I was working is "If Violence Against Women Act should be apply to same-sex couples." I did write some of it and then I lost my head when I read the definition of Domestic Violence. I know what it is, I know it way too much because I am a survivor of DV...I lived in the same house with my ex for years...and that life is one of the reasons I chose to be a Social Worker.

The definition of DV stated the beating, kicking and what not....and I went into my weird mode ever. I broke down and my overwhelming mode took over. I cried and lost the emotional sense of self. I know today and I knew it in the past that one should step out of emotional stage while working on the professional level, but at that very moment I lost it and I went on remembering my old days with my ex. The biggest issue, I think, was that I never believed I was going through domestic violence because he loved me, and I loved him...because we chose each other and because we were so happy at times...BUT the truth and reality was so different.

I learnt one thing out of that crashing mode of mine that I am still sensitive to DV issues, I am still in some sort of depression and overwhelming feelings can easily trigger the depressive mode. Hence I have decided to make myself strong and understand my triggers...so I am able to step back and be professional.

Working on three papers (one due on Sunday, second on Monday and third on Tuesday) shook me off...and also taught me that procrastinating is not healthy for emotional self as well as for educational goals of mine.

I finished all three papers on time. I am yet not sure if I finished every paper in a professional manner or not and also this that if I did the A grade work... Losing emotions is easy and it makes one lose grades too. I sent my Policy paper via email to my professor at 7.50 am when it was due at 8am. I guess lesson learnt, or something like that.

Anyways, I am awaiting results which I should get within few days.

Adios Amigo,
Trojan

P.S. Late entry lol means when as a social worker we forget or are unable to enter client's progress we write 'late entry' and the date of the incident day plus current date...and this post was well due from days so late entry it is lol